Love & Other Drugs

So today, i sat down and had a lazy day, i've treated myself to a 46" Full Hd Tv! It's come and i decided to watch Love & Other Drugs, this film isn't spectacular, but if you have memories that are to do with love, they will come back to you! It led me to thinking..

How to know if someone loves you, is it in his kiss like the famous song? No i don't believe so, maybe with other couples but with my ex boyfriend (i'm single at the moment) it was definitely in his eyes.
I believe one of the best and worst things in life is natural, not man-made, it comes from within our minds, i mean Memory. Memory is hard, sometimes we actually suppress memories that are so bad, because we're so scared to remember, and other times we wish we could suppress memories because even though they made us extremely happy at the time, they make us sad now because they are just a memory, they don't exist anymore.

Sometimes i wonder if memory is a good thing or a bad thing, do we really need to be reminded of the past? Because everyone says 'it's all about the future, forget about the past' yet they say we should remember our good times. Is it me or is this contradicting ourselves? We tend to do that a lot you know.

When i think about memory, i babble a lot, as you can probably see now. But it just boggles me, the way that we put such extraordinary moments in a little section in our brains, and when we choose too, (though choosing is not always the case) we re-live them, so vividly, to every precise detail. We can even remember the way it feels, but how? As i was watching love and other drugs, Dan holds Maddie in his arms, and every bit of sadness Maddie was feeling, dissapears, she feels safe.

I agree with this part of the movie, and i wonder how many of you out there have had the same feeling? Mine was a man holding me, the man i loved, and the man i trusted. I'm sure i felt safe when i was a child in my mothers arms, but it was nothing like the faith i felt in the man holding me. I felt faith that he cared, especially when i saw the hurt in his eyes that i was upset. That kind of thing gives you a feeling of being connected with someone. He was my boyfriend, and until then i doubted i was worthy, but in that moment and only the few seconds i focused on his eyes i knew, absolutely that no matter how much i denied it, he cared, and he couldn't help it. And as his arms brought me closer to him, i felt like nothing else was in the world but me and him, no matter whether this was reality or not, it was a feeling of greatness, a feeling that you can never shake of once you've felt it and a feeling you look for in every person you love since.

Really this blog entry was to remember that memory and to write it down, because hopefully as the years go i will have so many new memories, but sadly, the brain can only hold so many, so this one will probably be gone. I never want to forget the first time i felt that feeling, the first time i realised love really did exist!

All i'm saying is, as soppy as it is, and as silly as i sound, any memory you may have thats like this, just remember just for once, don't feel guilty if its about someone else, as they say, it's in the past!

Dont be Scared.
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