Love Really Does Make the World Go Round- IF it's real.

Let me tell you something, i don't get on with everyone. Oh, big shock! NOT! But two years ago, one of my older brothers started dating a girl, a girl who is not realistic, nor very intelligent, she was spoilt, and lived in a world of her own where she came first. I did not like her, i was civil of course for my brother, but she really wasn't my cup of tea.

1 year, 3 months into their relationship, something very shocking, very hard and very emotional happened. The thing that happened is a little miracle,however, this little miracle really came at a hard time, both emotionally hard, and financially. This only made me dislike her more, putting my brother under more strain, making him work more, when she had never worked. This little miracle, came 8 days ago today, the little miracle came with a name, Harry. Thats right, she was pregnant, she was having a little boy, and she was depending on everyone else.

Now i know i have made her sound to be a horrible person, and that she was not, but she was lazy and she would never admit it. That grinds against me, but, the point of this story is. 8 Days ago, i became proud, i became emotional and i began to admire them. 

Its amazing how if love is real, it can do anything, absolutely anything. I just wanted to say open your hearts, because opening your hearts allows the love to flow through every thought, every feeling and every bone in your body. Like mine does for Harry.

For Harry:  You're my prince, you're my nephew, and you are the complete love of my life. No pain will come to you when i am there, i'm so proud of you already, i'm proud of your mother, i'm proud of your father, and im so happy that you're here. I can only thank you, for being the best little man, you opened my mind, and most importantly, you completely and utterly opened my heart. For you my nephew, you're the most precious bundle i have ever held in my arms. And i love you. 

From an Aunties Perspective, From an Aunties Heart, and From an Aunties true thoughts.

Be proud, be happy, take in every moment and soak up every piece of love.

And NEVER be afraid to admit you were once wrong, as admitting your wrong then, will make you right now.

The Magic of Twitter.

Hello my lovelys, i know i havent been here for a long long time, but i'm now here to advertise you something!
I got sent a phone case by someone who goes by the name @sparklyforever on twitter. She is amazing, she makes homeade phone cases to suit any phone, and she does it with love and care. Mine is amazing, and i really want you all to check her out. PLEASE buy one, treat yourself! & let her or me know you did through this blog. Go to this link - https://twitter.com/#!/SparklyForever

Lots of love, share the love, and allow the love to flow- like twitter.

emotion.

So, i haven't written in a while, i've been so busy! Too busy to think of things to write about, but i just received a text and it made me rather emotional.

A text that told me how appreciated i am for a job i do on a day to day basis. Isn't it weird something so simple can make you strive that bit harder? I struggle a lot, and being a young girl, i like to be appreciated a lot aswell. This means i need praise, and good comments to know that i'm doing the right thing, else i really doubt myself. Maybe confidence will come in time, or maybe thats just me. We'll see one day though eh?

Emotions are funny things, one day you can feel right as rain but within a matter of minutes something, even good news can make you go into an almighty rage. Well how does that make any sense? I think we, as human beings live off emotions far too much. We depend on emotions to feel human, it's a natural instinct but if you don't feel emotion like the people around you do, you automatically think something is wrong with you. Not that everyones different.

Why do we all strive to be alike? Because people can sit there and say 'i'm not following the crowd' as much as they like, but only a small select group stick to this. I know for a fact i strive to be like other people, to look like other people & to dress like other people. And i also know this is just so i can be accepted into the real world with the people my age. But thing is, since i left a place meaning i have little time for social life and little amount of people around me that are my age, i realised that i don't have to be anyone else like that. I mean i can aspire to be someone else in the workplace, because i'm always bettering myself. Otherwise, what is the point? Still, saying that i still wear fashionable clothes, just incase i bump into someone i use to know, this is because i am who i am. 

Emotions are funny, there are so many of them in this world, yet so many different meanings to each single one. Really, this blog is to tell anyone who's reading it, stop it. Just stop following your emotions, lead them instead. Say to yourself  'i'm going to cry today because that is what i want to do' or say 'i'm going to be really excited' and give yourself reasons. Because there are always reasons to be happy, we have just got to find them. I struggle with that a lot, and thats when i think, i am never alone. No-one is ever alone. 

Stay safe, think happy, lead your emotions and remember, you're brilliant. Absolutely brilliant, and i aspire to be a little bit of every single one of you.

Cx

A Little Quote That Counts #1

Put your hand on a hot stove for a minute, and it seems like an hour.
Sit with a pretty girl for an hour, and it seems like a minute.
That's Relativity. - Albert Einstein

Here we go again..

So, i haven't wrote a blog for about a week, and now i've got an idea.

Today, i bumped into a person who used to like me, and i mean like, like. Comprende? I'd never met him before, and as soon as i saw him i thought ooo who's he?! THEN i remember the person who i used to text. And it all clicked together. The first thing i did was dig a little deeper.

So when i saw him, it was like a rush, like 'omg, he could be someone i want to know again?!' and then i came down to a thump, he has a girlfriend.
Now i wouldn't do that, if i thought she'd ever get hurt i just couldn't do it.

Now i'm stuck, and i know im rambling but if i don't write this down i will never understand to make a decision.

Do you think we get second chances? Do you think it's worth the risk. I'm always scared to have a fling. I either keep it to one night or like it serious. Because i'm so scared of hurting people. I don't know whether i just crave the attention, because it's so nice to feel wanted. Or if i want something?!

Do you ever have that? Do you ever feel incapable of a relationship?

If anyone has any answers- please tell me what to do!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Parents Strength

http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2084067/Antony-Worrall-Thompson-sorry-shoplifting-cheese-wine-Tesco.html

Antony Worrell Thompson, a well respected, quite famous, and seemingly nice man. I'm under the age of 20, yet i know who he is so he isn't someone for the older people. But anyway, he has just admitted to having a problem and his problem is, he shoplifts. The question is, can shoplifting ever be justified?

Mr Worrell Thompson, as i mention above, is quite famous, also meaning he has a fair bit of money under his belt. Well we can all assume right? He has however recently had to make people redundant and move from his mansion to a normal house. Still, a lot better of than others in this world.

My family lost their house, lost their business, and lost a few friends. We have never shoplifted. But what if the poorest of poor lose their house, their family, their business, their job, everything around them and you're just left with a mother/father and a baby. Does it become right to steal then? If a small child is wondering around without food, is it right for them to shoplift then?

I'm not so sure, and i'd quite like other peoples opinions on this. I'd like to think, that if i had no home and no-one to turn too, i could go to a shop, explain my situation and get a loaf of bread for my family. Or i could go to a town hall and be given some hospitality. As i would myself, give for others to be happy, or healthy. But i do not live in dream land, infact i am quite realistic and i understand that if everyone was like this, we would have some people take the mick! And pretend to not be able to afford food so they could get stuff for free.

At what point do we draw the line? Do we allow people to steal if its for their family who are so hungry yet unable to eat? Because this does happen you know, when i was younger we had to go round to friends to eat, and sometimes friends would have to come to us, because we couldn't afford food. You see we we're abandoned by a parent, so our single parent family, was left with nothing, all of a sudden. We managed to get through this alone, but thats not possible for everyone. Some people don't have the strength, intelligence or ethic to work to get what they need. While i agree that in most of these cases these people shouldn't have children, as they obviously can't look after themselves. But a lot of people, they have children at a perfect time for them, then someone royally messes them up and they are left stuck and alone.

As i mentioned earlier, im under 20, i don't have children as i'd like to wait until i am financially stable. But would i have the strength to support a family even through the worst of times? I guess i don't know, you never know until you are in that situation. I couldn't begin to imagination the strength it takes for mothers and/or fathers to raise their children. But honestly, if you are a mother or father, and you surround your children with a smile on your face everyday, then feel proud of yourself. Because no matter who you are, i aspire to be someone who can show their children that no matter what i am their rock.

Just like my mum has done for me.

Sending lots of love, strength and inspiration.

C x

Preference- Whether its good or bad.

So, a friend of mine added this picture to her facebook, it caused a bit of uproar and got me to thinking, does this picture produce a good image? Or does it give overweight and underweight people an excuse to be overweight and underweight?


How many times have you gone into your town centre and seen a very slim man with a curvacious woman? Well i have, plenty of times. This is because it's down to preference! This isn't an excuse to be unhealthy, but at the end of the day, if we all walked around as size 8's then when do you get to pick what you like? Some men like big bums (well i keep telling myself this, i need reassurance as mine is far from the small side!!!!!!) and some men like small boobs. Some women like thin men, and others like men that have lots of muscles. Its just something we like. 


We always grow up to be taught how to like and dislike things, this is a big part of a childs life, learning likes and dislikes. Its huge in the developmental charts. (i should know, i work with children!) so why are people judged for their preferences? I know, we all do it. I've done it a million times before. But why, if anyone knows this please feel free to explain to me!


So for me, this picture isn't a bad thing, a man may look at this picture and see his wife or girlfriends body. Who cares as long as we're happy, as they say we only live once. Who wants to live doing something they dont want to do. 


Stay safe, Be Happy, Take a risk
C x

Love & Other Drugs

So today, i sat down and had a lazy day, i've treated myself to a 46" Full Hd Tv! It's come and i decided to watch Love & Other Drugs, this film isn't spectacular, but if you have memories that are to do with love, they will come back to you! It led me to thinking..

How to know if someone loves you, is it in his kiss like the famous song? No i don't believe so, maybe with other couples but with my ex boyfriend (i'm single at the moment) it was definitely in his eyes.
I believe one of the best and worst things in life is natural, not man-made, it comes from within our minds, i mean Memory. Memory is hard, sometimes we actually suppress memories that are so bad, because we're so scared to remember, and other times we wish we could suppress memories because even though they made us extremely happy at the time, they make us sad now because they are just a memory, they don't exist anymore.

Sometimes i wonder if memory is a good thing or a bad thing, do we really need to be reminded of the past? Because everyone says 'it's all about the future, forget about the past' yet they say we should remember our good times. Is it me or is this contradicting ourselves? We tend to do that a lot you know.

When i think about memory, i babble a lot, as you can probably see now. But it just boggles me, the way that we put such extraordinary moments in a little section in our brains, and when we choose too, (though choosing is not always the case) we re-live them, so vividly, to every precise detail. We can even remember the way it feels, but how? As i was watching love and other drugs, Dan holds Maddie in his arms, and every bit of sadness Maddie was feeling, dissapears, she feels safe.

I agree with this part of the movie, and i wonder how many of you out there have had the same feeling? Mine was a man holding me, the man i loved, and the man i trusted. I'm sure i felt safe when i was a child in my mothers arms, but it was nothing like the faith i felt in the man holding me. I felt faith that he cared, especially when i saw the hurt in his eyes that i was upset. That kind of thing gives you a feeling of being connected with someone. He was my boyfriend, and until then i doubted i was worthy, but in that moment and only the few seconds i focused on his eyes i knew, absolutely that no matter how much i denied it, he cared, and he couldn't help it. And as his arms brought me closer to him, i felt like nothing else was in the world but me and him, no matter whether this was reality or not, it was a feeling of greatness, a feeling that you can never shake of once you've felt it and a feeling you look for in every person you love since.

Really this blog entry was to remember that memory and to write it down, because hopefully as the years go i will have so many new memories, but sadly, the brain can only hold so many, so this one will probably be gone. I never want to forget the first time i felt that feeling, the first time i realised love really did exist!

All i'm saying is, as soppy as it is, and as silly as i sound, any memory you may have thats like this, just remember just for once, don't feel guilty if its about someone else, as they say, it's in the past!

Dont be Scared.
Cx

New Years Resolution.

So, i've put a blog on here before, though you wouldn't know this, because i deleted it within an hour. I get very anxious, very easily. It's not like any of you know who i am, so why does it matter what i write?

Anyway, my new years resolution isn't like all the others, i used to put, to lose weight (though i really need to start doing this anyway!!) or to stop smoking (well actually i've quit now, so yippee for me!!). But this year, my new years resolution is to stop being so scared. I'm scared of everything, my own shadow infact! Literally, i jump at night if i see something on with wall, and it normally tends to be my shadow!

So here i am, trying to fufill that new years resolution. Sometimes i'll enter a numerous amount of blogs a day, this is because i don't always have time, so i just write down ideas and memories that i remember and then i get round to writing them when i  have time!

Oh by the way this is my way of writing, i actually talk to someone, i don't know who but it's always better to actually believe someones listening/reading!!

Anyway, be nice + we'll see if i stick to my new years resolution, we'll see if i write again.