emotion.

So, i haven't written in a while, i've been so busy! Too busy to think of things to write about, but i just received a text and it made me rather emotional.

A text that told me how appreciated i am for a job i do on a day to day basis. Isn't it weird something so simple can make you strive that bit harder? I struggle a lot, and being a young girl, i like to be appreciated a lot aswell. This means i need praise, and good comments to know that i'm doing the right thing, else i really doubt myself. Maybe confidence will come in time, or maybe thats just me. We'll see one day though eh?

Emotions are funny things, one day you can feel right as rain but within a matter of minutes something, even good news can make you go into an almighty rage. Well how does that make any sense? I think we, as human beings live off emotions far too much. We depend on emotions to feel human, it's a natural instinct but if you don't feel emotion like the people around you do, you automatically think something is wrong with you. Not that everyones different.

Why do we all strive to be alike? Because people can sit there and say 'i'm not following the crowd' as much as they like, but only a small select group stick to this. I know for a fact i strive to be like other people, to look like other people & to dress like other people. And i also know this is just so i can be accepted into the real world with the people my age. But thing is, since i left a place meaning i have little time for social life and little amount of people around me that are my age, i realised that i don't have to be anyone else like that. I mean i can aspire to be someone else in the workplace, because i'm always bettering myself. Otherwise, what is the point? Still, saying that i still wear fashionable clothes, just incase i bump into someone i use to know, this is because i am who i am. 

Emotions are funny, there are so many of them in this world, yet so many different meanings to each single one. Really, this blog is to tell anyone who's reading it, stop it. Just stop following your emotions, lead them instead. Say to yourself  'i'm going to cry today because that is what i want to do' or say 'i'm going to be really excited' and give yourself reasons. Because there are always reasons to be happy, we have just got to find them. I struggle with that a lot, and thats when i think, i am never alone. No-one is ever alone. 

Stay safe, think happy, lead your emotions and remember, you're brilliant. Absolutely brilliant, and i aspire to be a little bit of every single one of you.

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